Alpha's Hunt - Chapter 42
23-07-25 (05:25)
42. Say something
He doesn't come back the whole night.
Which is good. I really didn't want him to hear me cry
myself to sleep.
I wake up with puffy, red eyes, a numb mind and a
heavy conscious. My thoughts have tired themselves
by running in circles, my heart is a traitorous bastard.
The only solace I can offer myself is this;
It's going to be fine. Soon this Hunt will be over and
you'll never see Luke again. Both of you will get busy
in your new lives, forget this ever happened.
I splash water on my face, hissing when it stings my
eyes but the puffiness decreases a bit due to the cool
water. I change clothes and put my hair in a messy
braid.
I'm sitting on the bed, mind blank like an untouched
paper when the door opens. Luke's eyes meet mine
momentarily, I feel my heart jump to my throat.
He looks away and silently packs up our bag "We're
leaving."
With that, he goes out of the room. I ignore the twist
in my chest and follow him out. Ethan and Tyler are
sitting in the lounge, they look up at us. Ethan quickly
averts his gaze, his perfect nose swollen, though the
bruises on his neck now gone.
Tyler only exchanges a nod with Luke before we go
out of the house.
We walk on for hours, not once saying anything. The
silence is so loud, I want to clamp my hands on my
ears to shut it out. Several times, I had opened my
mouth to say something but then mashed my lips
together, not speaking.
The day bleeds into night without a single word
spoken between the two of us.
Is that how it will be from now? Did whatever we had
was shattered by the reality I'm desperately holding
onto?
"We'll camp the night here," Luke says, stopping at a
small clearing
I nod, unable to form words. The irony is cruel, really.
He always wanted me to be quieter, I always wanted
him to treat me as a fighter, a warrior.
Both of us have exactly what we wanted, but its not
what we want anymore.
Silently, mindlessly, I start the fire and sit by it,
watching the flickering flames.
Is this what it's like to be in relationships? Even if for a
few minutes? Goddess, this sucks.
Luke hands me a blanket, I silently accept it. He walks
away, standing by a tree, arm crossed across his chest.
I stare at him for a few moments. Say something. Say
what? Tell him he should've never thought 'we' could
work. Tell him I'm an idiot for being blinded by my
own feelings to notice that him and me were
becoming we
Tell him I wish it wasn't this way but reality is
chocking my hope and telling me this is how it is. Tell
him I want to put my arms around him and hide my
face in his chest, away from reality.
Will that change anything?
So I just stay quiet. I put the bag under my head,
using it as a pillow and wrap the blanket around me. I
close my eyes and tell myself again; Don't forget to leave a Comment 
